Perhaps if we try and do too much too soon we risk doing our will instead of God’s?
"“We, for instance, every now and then contemplate the future; - Jesus not even once. But let someone ill or a beggar come to the house, Jesus is with him, consoles him and gives him alms. And thus I have observed Jesus in all His doings and actions, never having any reason to criticize or take Him to task.
“A Troup of Romans is coming down the road, stopping at the well. You know yourself that it is strictly forbidden to give bread and water to the poor hungry and thirsty prisoners. What does Jesus do? He goes out there with bread and water, looks at the Romans and they tolerate Jesus refreshing the prisoners. And how I worried about His deed! But Jehovah had mercy on us. We did not suffer any misfortune. On the contrary, my sons acquired a profitable commission from the Roman commandant.
“And thus I live in the recognition that silence is the best route in this case. If Jesus can be silent all day, I should be able to remain silent too even if the mouth would love to say a lot.” (P 11.)